So now its Thursday. It's been a week. Still having issues, still can't get the brain to shut down when I am not busy. I'm starting to run out of things to do! My house is fixing to be entirely clean! I just have to do a little cleaning/straightening in my room, then put away some DVDs, and its done. It's rainy weather here so I can't do any kind of yard work, although there is not much that needs to be done there. I think I am going to go take a nice hot relaxing bubble bath when I am done here.
I will probably chill out and read a book followed by some Gilmore Girls. I've started re-watching the series to keep me occupied sometimes. Currently on the second season. :) I forgot how much I liked this show. Facebook has also been a pretty good distraction, most of the time anyway. Yesterday I finally closed out the open chat window I've had open since mid-August.
Having awesome friends both local and far away has also helped. Their care & support has been very key to me not going completely psycho! Plus I had fun last night with knittinglitemom and Bamfio. Drinks and crazy Facebook comments! Finally starting to feel like I can get through this, whatever this is. I was even able to start my crocheting again. Plus I think I'm going to start a baby blanket for one of my students that is about to become a father.
So today, my mood is best suited by the song "World So Cold" by Three Days Grace. Missing my girl!
"World So Cold"
Three Days Grace
I never thought
I'd feel this
Guilty and I'm
Broken down inside
Living with myself
Nothing but lies
I always thought
I'd make it
But never knew I'd
Let it get so bad
Living with myself
Is all I have
I feel numb
I can't come to life
I feel like
I'm frozen in time
Living in a
World so cold
Wasted away
Living in a shell
With no soul
Since you've gone away
Living in a world so cold
Counting the days
Since you've gone away
Do you ever feel me
Do you ever look
Deep down inside
Staring at yourself
Paralyzed
I feel numb
I can't come to life
I feel like
I'm frozen in time
Living in a
World so cold
Wasted away
Living in a shell
With no soul
Since you've gone away
Living in a world so cold
Counting the days
Since you've gone away
You've gone away from me
I'm too young
To lose my soul
I'm too young
To feel this old
So long
I'm left behind
I feel like
I'm losing my mind
Do you ever feel me
Do you ever look
Deep down inside
Staring at your life
Paralyzed
Living in a
World so cold
Wasted away
Living in a shell
With no soul
Since you've gone away
Living in a world so cold
Counting the days
Since you've gone away
I'm too young [x2]
