"All changes are more or less tinged with melancholy, for what we are leaving behind is part of ourselves." - Amelia Barr
I really think I have absolutely nothing left that I could leave behind anymore! Seriously the puzzle box is all empty!
The puzzle was damaged, but I was able to fix it and put it back together again. Took awhile and some help to find all the pieces, but I did it. Took myself back out into the world, intact, whole, and confident. It was a rough and rocky start, but then things began to look up! Or at least for awhile they did!
Then all of a sudden BAM!!! There goes the puzzle again! Pieces once again missing from the picture. But I was able to pick up the pieces again and get it pretty much back together, ready to try to move on again.
Then on August 13th, after a really bad day, the person who last broke the puzzle comes back into the picture and I let them back in. Things start up again and were going really well. We finally had our first official date and then even a second one! Then things started happening, not to me, but to him. Now, he has once again gone M.I.A. because of it. I don't understand why he felt the need to shut me out! TWICE! I mean if you can't handle someone when they're at their lowest/worst, why should you get their best? I thought that he would get through it and that he would let me help him. He was talking to me about it this time. But I guess I was wrong. Sitting here now I realize that I never truly knew where we stood with one another. I thought that things were good between us and would only get better in time. But time was one of the issues the last few weeks. I wanted more time with him than I was getting. due to various issues on his part.
Well, time to try and pick up the pieces again I guess! Slowly but surely, one by one, piece by piece. I just wish it didn't hurt so much!
